Monday, November 6, 2017

My Heart is Thankful

My heart is so thankful on this Monday large in part due to the fact that my beau will be starting Honor Guard. Why we were on vacation this past week he got a call that he had been chosen to be in Air Force Honor Guard. He will literally be the public face of the Air Force. We were told that his duty for Honor Guard could last for the next six months. It will give him a chance to try something new and it’s a big honor. But, there will be times when he will be gone and it will be just me and our fur babies. 😭  It’s never fun when he has to leave, especially for weeks at a time, and it’s not like he’s gone far away or that he even has to travel for work that often. And I know, there has been times in our relationship that we have been apart for many months but it was the hardest part of our lives and we have pledged to never let it happen again. Now, I say that and I know being in the Military means he will be gone sometimes for long periods of time if he is deployed and such but it’s different for at least us. I know many would argue with me that it is not different. Of course every situation is different and your heart breaks either way to be apart. With either situation no matter the circumstances (being apart due to military, school, a job, or whatever the reason) it may be one of the hardest things you ever have to do in your relationship. However, during this time apart I reflect on all the ways in which I am grateful to have this man.

So, for today I am scribbling down my thoughts and would like to share about my beau and how a little bit of distance can make you grow in your relationship with your partner.

You’re lying if you say that you want to spend every waking moment with your partner. It just does not happen. Once you are living with this person it is both the greatest feeling ever to share your lives together and at the same time the worst simply because there are times when you want privacy or just a little time for yourself separate from your partner. This does not mean you do not love your significant other and I am not trying to convey that message. It just means that everyone deserves some me time and there is nothing wrong with that.

For example...

We live in a good sized apartment but there are not too many places to hide and get away. I love taking bubble baths. Ryan knows that once I am in the bathtub with the door shut, candles lit, and my book or iPad to binge on Netflix that is my cue for privacy and time for me to relax. No interruptions. But with our busy lifestyle this mostly never happens anymore!! It’s jump in the shower as fast as possible so the next person can take one and get ready for work.

This means that I need to find privacy in a different way, especially when I need and want time for blogging. Again, without any interruptions. This we’re still working on.. I would love just even a quiet walk on the beach. But we live to far from the beach haha I just love this photo I took a couple days ago on our Florida vacation.

As much as I want time for myself and wish that he would just leave me alone for a moment, I am constantly reminded that in times when he does have to be away, such as in the very near future with Honor Guard, I miss him. And my heart will ache till he is in my arms and trying to tickle me😉

  1. I miss waking up next to him in the morning.
  2. I miss giving him a kiss before leaving for work.
  3. I miss him making coffee or my lunch for me in the morning even if he doesn’t have to wake up when I do.
  4. I miss that he wakes up at 3am to take the dogs out to pee.
  5. I miss having dinner and having him to come home to.
  6. I miss the smile on his face when I walk through the door as if I had been gone for longer than a few hours.
  7. I miss cuddling up and watching t.v. with him.
  8. I miss sleeping next to him at night and feeling safe.

I am grateful that I have such a loving man to call my own. And in times when I feel like I just want to be alone I will try to remember these moments of being without him. The old saying is true...absence does make the heart grow fonder and it makes me realize each time that when he is not with me I feel as though a true piece of me is missing.

Having some distance can be good for your relationship every so often because it forces you to see what life would truly be like if you were apart from the one you love. It does not matter if it is for a few days, a week, or longer. You will find gratitude in your relationship during the periods of distance and pure joy and happiness when they finally return.

So enjoy every moment even the little moments you have together even if it’s just snuggling in front of the TV.

1 comment:

  1. Thank you so much for the list,holidays are nearby and i didn't know what to watch,i was in a desperate need of some movies.